So while I was at my parent’s house over Christmas, I stood on their bathroom scales
Granted, Christmas is probably not the best time to take an interest in one’s weight, and I’ve never been one for buying into the whole ‘you have to be thin to be beautiful’ zeitgeist. But I do FEEL unfit, and whatever my feelings about body shape, it should probably be a warning sign when the bathroom scale reads ‘Please use scales one at a time’.
I also have a favourite pair of dungarees that ‘shrunk in the wash’ and that I would quite like to wear again.
So I did what any self respecting gamer would do in this situation. I bought Just Dance 2018 for my PS4
And before anyone asks, NO I WILL NOT BE STREAMING IT!!! Hell no. No one needs to see that. I have two left feet and the rhythm sense of a jellyfish. Streams will be sticking to Warframe, Dragon Age, etc etc.
If you WANT to see Just Dance streamed (and streamed properly, not the disaster I’m going to make of it) then check out Littlesiha
Besides my stereotypical “must get fit this year” goal, I also have my streaming goals for this year. 2018 saw the channel take less focus from me as I concentrated on my new job, which I am still loving. I have been there a year now, and am comfortable, happy, and am DEFINITELY in a much better place mentally than I was at the close of 2016. Granted I could have been a character is Les Miserables and been in a better place mentally at the end of 2016, but that’s besides the point.
2017 was the year that I gave myself to focus on content creation (
and burn up my savings) and I won’t take back a second of that year for the world. It let me recharge, and it taught me a lot about myself, and streaming, and myself in regards to streaming. Above all though, it taught me that streaming, for me, will never be a full time job. I just don’t have the mentality for it. It makes me see it differently, and stop enjoying it.
So back to part time we went.
2018 saw me focus on my job more, which combined with an organic move towards the current variety format, saw the channel shrink considerably. I won’t lie and say that shrinkage doesn’t make me sad sometimes, but it is the nature of the beast, and to be honest I would rather have a variety format and a small channel, than a single game format and a large channel right now.
Towards the middle/end of 2018 I burned out on Minecraft. Like properly. I just couldn’t think creatively. Had this been a single game Minecraft channel, well that would have been a disaster. Instead I currently have a handful of games running, each with their own “days” on the schedule which is stuck to where possible. It makes things a bit chaotic, but I enjoy the format more, and it means that there is more on offer. And I am now getting back into Minecraft, after a break that a single game format would not have allowed.
Besides, it’s not as if a variety format CAN’T work on Twitch. Your Honour I present exhibit A, Pistachibow
My end goal, as always, in Twitch Partnership, but after three years and 0 progress on that front, I can’t see year four suddenly being the year I succeed, so I am instead focusing on smaller goals on the streaming front. Working towards the ultimate goal, but being smart about it and allowing for the fact that reality IS a thing.
Okay, enough waffle, let’s post some goals for 2019. First up, RL goals.
Get back into dungarees
Goal weight, 10 stone. Current weight, 15 stone
Pay of credit cards
Shall not post amount here, but there’s a FEW 0s after the lead number :-/
Focus on my nails
My nails are quite bad. They crack easily (Which is probably because of the lack of dairy in my diet) and I always forget to paint them. So I want to keep them painted, and get them healthy, in 2019. I know, a strange one. But it is one.
Wear Make up to work
Really, just take pride in my appearance full stop, to be honest.
Start saving for new house/flat
I feel that I need a bigger place. I would like to live closer to work, and also have room for a proper home office, instead of a converted corner of the living room.
Actually remember to keep this blog up this time
If nothing else, it will keep me motivated on goals and stuff.
And now for streaming goals in 2019. First, the numbers.
Get 20 average viewers
Currently at 9.71, but I haven’t streamed in about a week so that gives me a fair “floor” to climb up from.
Get a steady 60 sub points
Currently at 34, so halfway there.
And now the none numbers.
Focus on Sand Cats
My stream team that isn’t really a stream team was neglected almost the moment I started it. I would like to try and get it growing this year, and maybe get some Sand Cats events running.
Focus on Pillow Fort
Commit to more community events, the server, and general community, all of which were the main and most noticeable casualties of my “work first” mentality over 2018.
I normally have a ‘goals review’ on my birthday, so we will see what things are like then.
Thanks for reading. Love you. *hugs*